What can you expect from music, it is imperfect. You would be better off being a doctor. Though now a damaged adult heading towards your half life you are what you are. Rejecting the images of industry, the hair, the clothes, the idolation, you can see why driving a truck has more desire. The poser will always be a poser no matter how famous, we are the posers, we are the cure. Some say music is the most powerful art, I think it is the most pointless these days. I am a musician myself but see no point in telling you it has any value now. Even visual art has no point without words, movies are almost so intrusive with fantasy they serve no purpose. So what is left? Words. A romance novel does nothing for me. Harry Potter is just a fast food. So what actually is writing doing? What it should be doing is what a documentary does, capturing reality.